Welcome to our world.

Existing here in the era of Covid19 is surreal. The entire world has practically shut down. Many people are out of work, may not have a workplace to return to once this is over; others are finding ways to struggle through but each and every day they are waking up to anxiety and uncertainty; they’re experiencing relationship difficulties; they’re having difficulty regulating their moods; they’re quick to anger, feel helpless and trapped.

To this, I say, welcome to our world.

We all know this. We know how PTSD just barged into our lives and changed everything we ever knew. We know what it’s like living in uncertainty; many of us struggled and fought valiantly before losing our jobs. We know financial uncertainty. We know the constant anxiety that steals sleep, steals confidence and sows seeds of mistrust. Right now the rest of the world is getting a peak at what we live(d) in for so long. The fear of being in public spaces, of being near other people. The difficulty sleeping. The strange dreams, perhaps even nightmares.

Think about it. This is what we’ve wished the entire world could understand. Uncertainty. Perhaps even permanent changes going forward in the way they have to live their lives – just like us.

Some will bounce back and some won’t. Just like us. Those that do, we hope, will learn from their experience and approach their new normal with a different mindset, far more carefully, just as we do.

We can hope that this pause in their life helps them to understand that for us, there is no return to normal; the way we approach the world has changed fundamentally. In fact, many PTSDers out there are admitting that this pandemic has had little impact on the way they live their lives.

You see, many of us are already public shy, wary of strangers, and prefer small gatherings over large groups. We already know how to occupy ourselves without the need to involve others. We know social media and virtual connectedness. We appreciate silence and understand the value of it. We are friends with sunshine and have a genuine understanding of the value of a soft breeze or a warm mug. We have come to appreciate the little things and we understand how to harness the comfort inherent in a simple existence.

So, take pride in that right now because all around you are homes in chaos – you remember the chaos, right? You remember how long it took us to adjust? Take a deep breath, harness some patience and see, they are where you once were. Their worlds are upside down.

Be proud of all you’ve learned that has carried you thus far, my fellow PTSDers, we got this. We’ve already seen far worse than this. We will come out the other side, together.

In Solidarity.

PS. My deepest condolences to our brothers and sisters in Nova Scotia; to our RCMP brethren on the loss of Cst Heidi Stevenson, to our CSC members on the loss of Alana Jenkins & Scott Mcleod & to our Fire families on the loss of Tom Bagley. In the aftermath of such a tragedy, you will be numb for some time, then raw and in pain. We are here for you if you need a shoulder. Please don’t hesitate to talk to someone. Know we all support you, feel for you and wish we could ease your pain. The healing will take time. Strength and love to you all.

About Medic72

Now former Medic turned writer, struggling to cope in a Post Trauma world. This is how I see the world.
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1 Response to Welcome to our world.

  1. Marty says:

    Excellent analysis medic. Being raised by a controlling violent narcissistic father, I did not have attachments from the isolation.

    I always wondered why crowds scared me or made my anxiety increase.

    We all have different challenges but stressful for all.

    As for normal people, they will never have a clue what a nervous system flipped upside down feels like.

    Will never know or understand how a harmless seemingly neutral situation may cause intense fear and anxiety for a ptsd sufferer.


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